finally, i really had a longggg day out :))














SACHOKKK!!


Gosh! Today was a really tiring day. Serious, but I had fun! Finally I met those faces that Ive been longing to see. Especially SACHOK! and SYAFIQAH! hahas! Gosh, I was smiling from ear to ear when I saw them just now. Happyyy :)) And Syafiqah, THANK YOU VELY THE MUCH FOR SCREAMING MY NAME SO LOUD. hahahas! but I was really happyyyy to see you :)) Shall meet up soon. Woots! Woots!
And to SACHOK!, finally get to see your Sachok face, cheh. hahahs! Dah "abang2" lah die. Step only xP hahaha! && to Alan ah, happy to see you too!*hugs* hahahas, finally we meet up. Woots woots! && to Muffie also. Happy to see you babe! :)) Dont stress stress, everything will go smoothly. Keep thinking at the bright side of life, confirm okay one. Overall, my boys made my day a crazy one from the afternoon till evening. Thank you boys so much! Ive always been bullied by you boys but today it was my turn! nyehehehs xD Evil sia kiki. Okay, Im outta here. Nitey nites!

xoxo

apparently what she's doing now is exactly what you've done before, did you realise?

hahahas! Kids nowadays cant seem to stop causing problems. Trouble-makers betol lah! It seems whatever you splurge on your space reflects directly back at you. Did you even realise that? Gosh! Yeah yeah, say that "Ive change okay and Im not the old me anymore" again. I dont think it'll work on me and other people out there you've hurt or maybe LIED to also? hahahas! You're contradicting yourself you know? Come one babe, wakey wakey! She's just like you, trying to be NOTICED and KNOWN by everyone. :)) Sorry to those who feel the pinch but yeah.
nuff' said, my leg feel sooo jelly-melly and my eyes are half-open. Goodnight! :))

E63, you make my day today. :))

Thanks Minahlicious for making my day today by giving me the warmest hug ever! :)) love you la babe!
Au revoir*

C'est bizarre.

And suddenly I miss orchestra pracs.

=(

When will exams be over and I can meet the timpani again. RAH.


AHAHAHAHA. Nonsense lah the things CH finds!

And suddenly reminds me of VGL. I MISS VGL and the clicks. Good times.

And oh. I need to get started on the essay. And because it's so weird that all my entries have been private so far, this shall be for the public! Hurrah!

(-.-)"

C'est bizarre.

not in the mood to entertain all this shit

All in all, Im doing my best to accept fate but you're pushing to my limits and I advice you'd better stop. Before my patience eventually decrease and I get out of hand, I assure you'll regret it.

xoxo

what did i do?


Sometimes I sit and ask myself, "What did I do wrong this time?" or "Why are you pushing so hard on me? I thought we're still friends?" I still dont understand. hmms

Happyyy Suweeettt Sixteeenn!! la hor :))

So sorry, Im only able to update now cause yesterday was a VERY BUSY day! Went out the wholeeee day and got back home only at 4am with Irfan.bff. I invited Irfan to join me to my cousin's birthday pit and yeah we had loads of fun! Very Kecoh-rable la sey! Serious. "Irfan and the Girls" has officially created by us yesterday and we will soon be out there, performing for you guys LIVE! hahahahas! Wtf. Random!
Basically this was how it goes for yesterday's outing.

-Bapak fetch me, Atuk&Iz from home
-Singapore flyers to meet Mama
-Ate POPEYES for lunch
-Bukit Batok CC to collect all the things
-Send Syimah home
-Irfan's place to put some stuff
-My place to put the rest of the stuff
-Han River for dinner :))
-Downtown East for Bdae BBQ
-Mcd for Supper :))

Pictures





There'll be more pictures up on my Facebook soon :))

Wahhh! Best per? Ate alot in one day. I shall do that often lor! :D
Then TODAY

-Wedding performance at Ritz(bro in-law) place for his brother's wedding.
-Jurong Point for Ice-cream
-Home Sweet Home
-Parkway with family for dinner
-Anderson Ice-cream for dessert
-Home Sweet Home again :))

&& Yay! Im going to get myself a new phone already. Happy giler! :)) I cant wait for tomorrow.
Okay done, im outta here to continue with my WEBBYDESIGNY.
Oh, i miss H :/

Sometimes, it makes me wonder how can some people have such low EQ and be so tactless. Seriously, what have you been learning the past few years of your life? It does not make sense at all. Or if people tell you to shut up, just shut your mouth already. ZZZ

You know the TV commercial by some radio station that you only hear the good things? It is true to a certain extent. People generally see what they are looking for, and hear what they are listening for. I am guilty of this at times. I don't give the benefit of doubt to people whom I've heard certain negative remarks about, even if its hearsay, or plain rumours. The rare times I step out of my comfort zone and get to know the person better before making my own judgement (if I like that person), without having others' opinions clouding my brain, takes up too much efforts.

Getting to know someone, takes an effort, requires that bit of initiative, and finally, the chemistry to get along well. Everyday, you get to learn something new about someone, and then your mind will weigh the options if the person is healthy for you, or causing destruction to you in any ways, then deciding whether to filter or to keep the person.

I say all these, because my main point is really this. Say what you mean, and mean what you say. Don't play with heads or hearts, and don't expect people to be able to read your mind. We are not all Edward Cullen, and even he has his weakness. Half truths are never tolerated, and when the full truths are out in the open, don't tell me you actually still expect trust?! Half truths, are as bad as lies. Don't even try to cover for it.

And well, don't be cold to someone you actually care about, because indifference, actually hurts much much more than angry words in the end. But when you realise it's time to leave, just walk away quietly, with no fuss. And everything can be better.

I get more&more knowledgable (or try to be) as I age by the days. Exams are looming ahead, and here I am preaching to people about issues. What is wrong with me exactly.

P.S I write all these, because I want to remember what I think, and to preach what I teach.

Just visited my neighbourhood optician. He has won my undying loyalty.

The trip resembled one to an opthamologist: he gave me invaluable theories and information on my eye condition. I have seen double, literally, ever since the eye operation I had to correct my 'lazy eye' during my school days.

He said that the overlapping images might be caused by the great imbalance in the degree of my eyes. The other possibility is weak eye muscles in my left eye, causing 'eye turn' that makes both eyes unable to function together. The effect is amplified when my eyes are feeling tired. Either way, the result is eye fatigue and the gradual separation of the two images as I get more and more tired.

It's true; on bad days after work I can hardly walk properly and have to blink to focus. When I don't get enough sleep, particularly, focusing requires a ridiculous amount of concentration and my irritation level soars. I guess I never realised how much my eyes determined my destiny.

He advised that I rest my eyes regularly by looking into the distance or closing them. Sleeping more also helps, apparently. I shouldn't read or use the computer too much. The irony is great, I know, considering my job.

I shall follow his advice as faithfully as I can.

He did all this for us in about an hour and a half while the shop swarmed with other customers. It was insane how many people walked in. Despite the crowd, he never skimped with his attention. He listened to every customer and never looked rushed or anything other than fully attentive to every single query we had -- and I had a lot of questions. It was an incredible feat.

I realised that he must love his job and love people in order to behave this way. Having the degree counts for nothing; knowledge without passion doesn't get applied. An intellectual inclination might compensate partially for interest in people, but not fully, I think.

Anyway, the new spectacles will be here by the end of next week. Next month, I might try contacts, as he said they don't result in different-sized images in the vision.

coffae said something interesting last weekend when the three of us were lying in the Botanic Gardens eyeing the stars. She remarked that I wake right up when we start conversing on topics that I find meaningful. I think she said "deep topics".

I really am energised by things that are meaningful to me. Trivialities sometimes set me brooding, and too much gets me annoyed. I like talking to people, though; exchanges, debates, arguments. I like figuring out what makes people tick, then being able to see through their eyes and understand why they speak a certain way or choose to do things in this or that way. The sense of imagined connection when I 'get it' is quite marvellous.

I was thinking a few days ago on the bus why I spend so much of my life pondering other people, honing this particular art that I'm coming to realise is my art -- as it is my Achilles' Heel. Every strength like this stems from an essential weakness, I believe, a core insecurity. The beauty, the symmetry, of that thought resonated through me. It's as if nature compensates in kind for what she takes away. My recent change in situation has also its oddly bright side.

My brain seems to take these disjointed events and slowly grind sense out of it over the course of days, weeks, months.

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

...

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl


just for you from your girl,
Sasha Fierce

skinnier, yes? no?

Im working hard this week to complete all my assignments on time. I dont want to let myself down again. Today, Im going to get my ass to school for my Intro to 3d class. Dear GOD, open my brain big big today so that I can absorb everything just fine :))
&& To dearest H, goodluck with your posting tomorrow and have the most honourable yet memorable P.O.P on Thursday :))

I shall make my way to the bathroom to get my shower and have my morning breakfast right away. Goodmorning earthlings!
xoxo

Must type before bed. I watched Julie & Julia with a large number of colleagues today after a rather full day at work.

It was pretty funny but hit too close to home; it's one of those cases that relating too much actually made it uninteresting to watch. I guess I watch movies nowadays to either escape entirely, for which I just need a reworked fairytale trope, or to be inspired, seeing something new and revelatory in everyday material. This movie was nearly the second kind but didn't strike me deep enough to succeed as an emotional drama. But that's just my take on it. I loved how we could sit in a row and laugh at those things that others might not appreciate.

Yes, it was the laughter, more laughter than I've indulged in for a long time, and I was very very happy. Tired, though. Been tired for a week now after going out for two consecutive nights two weeks ago--throws my biological clock right off.

I wonder what this week brings. It should be quite sad that I have no motivation to attend the Writer's Fest this year... I know exactly why, though, and my reasons are quite reasonable. Que sera sera?

stop playing bejeweled
stop playing mafia wars
stop playing country story
stop play mj mahjong

stop surfing tw spree-sites
stop watching kangxilaile
stop wanting to play volleyball
stop trying to put all edible matter within sight into my mouth

simply put, i need to stop procrastinating. :o 
(most efficient strategy #1: have someone suspend my fb account)

四目交接的时候 不要停留太久
适可而止的问候 关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索 嫉妒只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞 也不能对你说

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义